at first

"At first I didn’t really know if I wanted to do this to be honest, but as I found out that this is what Matt wanted, this is what the family wanted, it started to change the equation for me," he told the BBC.

“And I never got strung out on liquor. I had this ideal idea of wine tastings and all that — which is what it was at first. And that’s a very subtle thing. I mean, I drank the best,” he said.

But that is not what she publicly claimed happened at first.

At first blush, hockey and Harvard appear to go together about as well as a concussion and a Nobel Prize.

“I wanted to see what he was like beforehand. And you don’t want to go the entire opposite end of the spectrum, which is like, he’s an a— and he’s a villain because you want the audience to be on this journey with him. So, it was fun to make him just a little more immature at first.”